Tag: #Christ

GOD IS IGNORING YOU

The constant prayers you’ve sent off to God seemingly are missing his front door entirely or read with laughter.

For you there are no other options…as nothing is happening.

You never expected for life to be easy. You knew it was going to be difficult and chaotic. You expected to lose loved ones, fail tests and miss out on new job opportunities. You expected it to seem unfair and unequal. You knew that just because you’re a good person…bad things will continue to stalk you.

What you did not expect is getting ignored from The God you worship. This was not part of the plan. This is not what he said. He clearly informed you to come to him for your problems…that he can somehow make things better. You do not expect life to stop having issues, but you do expect God to assist you with guidance and direction.

At times your faith in him was seemingly invincible. It was passionate and courageous. The feeling of waking up in the morning with a God on your side was calming to your screaming thoughts.

“the good ol days” are all that remains of this…as that same faith has lost its foundation. Even when you pray for more faith…nothing happened. When you prayed for any miracle for help…nothing happened.

Nothing is happening.

It’s been months and months of heartfelt prayer with no response. You question God at this point. “Imaginary friend” recycles in your mind from your past experiences in life. “Maybe they’re right…” as the self-pity absorbs the little pride you cling to.

Jesus stood alone

When Jesus was walking with a group of followers that had gathered from his miracles, he began talking to them in regard to the purpose of his supernatural abilities. He wanted to make it clear that miracles had a specific motive…and it wasn’t to toss evidence to unbelievers.

It was received with shaking heads and faithless minds. The followers began to argue about these new teachings. The crowd began walking away, most likely annoyed or bored by Jesus. After the crowd left, only a few men were left standing: the apostles.

Jesus looks over at one of them, Peter, and asks a powerful question...”Will ye also go away?” to which Peter replied “Lord, to whom shall we go? Thou hast the words of eternal life”

I imagine that Jesus couldn’t help but smile, as the sarcasm from Peter was based off the presumption that he and the crew obviously knew Jesus was the Christ. How wholesome a situation…the apostles standing firm as the crowd walks away? To stand with Christ is peak beauty in this existence.

If you have enough faith to pray passionately, on a consistent basis for something, then your faith is sufficient to accept that he is in fact listening…but not acting in a way you can see. As each day passes with nothing to show for your time on your knees…you still are forced into the same response Peter gave. Where else are you to go? Can you just force yourself into atheism by choice? Can you reject God and go sin like he doesn’t exist anymore? Can you start believing in another God of some sort to get back at God?

The alternative responses to Peter’s are not things that happen overnight. They take time and effort to do. If you have faith built up in God, trying to forcibly reject him is unnatural and disorderly to your soul. You cannot choose to openly reject the same God you’ve had faith in all your life and not lose the spirit in the process. This radical loss from God is the medication to your soul…and if rejected will give withdrawals that never stop.

God knows that the beautiful worldview you’ve created with him cannot be clicked off like a remote control. You accept a creator, so now you must live your life accordingly. In these difficult times, our response is to live with the frustration, confusion and lacking evidence for a time. God knows what’s like to be a human, he himself was one…so he understands every tear that you shed. He knows why you’re upset, afraid and anxious. He knows you more than you know you.

The whole experience of feeling rejected by God is nothing new. In Psalms 22, we see a man crying to God above for help…with no response. “O my God, I cry in the day time, but thou hearest not…” are the words written on the feeling of frustration and rejection. Just like you, this individual was confused by his creator’s stoic position to his prayers, yet we can see that the idea of giving up or rejecting God was not even a consideration. The individual was going to push with nothing to put his faith in… stand strong even with no response. “My God my God, Why hast thou forsaken me?” are the opening words to this chapter…the same words repeated by Christ as he suffocated on the cross. While many scholars have different interpretations of why Jesus repeated these words, I believe that Jesus needed to experience a full rejection of God and push through to finish his mission on earth. Could Jesus have changed his situation while on the cross? Of course he could have. If, during this short period of loss from his father he decided to change his mind…. he easily could have done so. As he hung on a cross, trying to take in oxygen for his dying body, his father left him alone entirely for a short time which forced Jesus into the deepest depths of darkness. Considering Jesus was also human, he experienced confusion by this loss. It did not stop him, though. The savior continued with his mission and pushed through the deepest darkest moments in the history of mankind. If there ever was an example to all of us on what to do when it seems God has rejected us, or left us, this is the moment we need to remember.

Keep moving forward with Christ. You know he lives, so accept that this spiritual drought is necessary for something in the future. Like Peter said…what is the alternative? To openly reject your creator? To run to sin, which in return will punish your already frustrated soul? No. Stick close to God and his word…and God will arrive with blessings from heaven on his time.

-Jarom

Jesus the Christ: The Greatest Over-empath of All Time

As Jesus walked the sea of Gallie, we can only question what he thought in his Godly mind. He must of, at times, looked out at the sea he created and smiled like Vincent van Goh did to his finished paintings. I have this potent thought, that the sun must have come down over the massive surrounding mountains across the sea, shinning down on a certain savior who put his feet in the sand of the shore.

Imagine with me, waking up in a world that you created. You look out your window and everything you see is nothing less than a product of your finished painting. Every bird you hear and bug you see is your product. This entire reality as you know it is your beautiful project.

Every single creature in the ocean was known by Jesus and not a micro atom was unknown to him. All the mysterious of the world, from “bigfoot” sightings to unknown creatures in our oceans was known in detail to Christ. He was the final truth of every mystery of the world, a world that scientist attempt to figure out to this day.

Jesus, the Christ was hated, mocked and was seen as the bottom of bottoms on earth to most individuals 2000 years ago. The roman guards had quit the time laughing at his frail body as he lie in anguish from the brutal kicks to his body. Saliva ran down his beaten face from being spit on. Some argue that the whip that was used to hit his back could have revealed his bones to some extent, considering that it was made to tear flesh. He was then forced to carry an extremely awkward and heavy cross, the same cross he would later suffocate on to his death.

Now imagine with me again, how through all this, he had an astronomical comprehension of human suffering. In Psalms the writer says “put thou my tears into thy bottle: are they not in thy book?“. Not a tear has occurred in all human history that is not immediately grabbed and put into his book. Or, in other words, not a tear has fallen that he himself hasn’t felt.

Jesus, the perfect psychologist

When someone is in need of a psychologist, they typically pay some money, spend some time and listen in on what someone in the field has to say. If someone is battling the pains of depression, anxiety or fears, then a professional can offer some valuable help. Some need this assistance, and the professionals can really fine tune an individual’s mental state.

The only issue with hiring a psychologist is that they never really know how you actually feel. If someone is battling PTSD, they can only go off what the victim tells them, attempting to recollect various theories from professional literature to help the one in need. They can definitely offer assistance, but ultimately the only individual who knows the experience of their specific PTSD, is that individual and no one else on the planet. The same can be said about any part of human experience, we all feel various levels of suffering that no one experiences but only us. While some could argue that we feel similar pains, the reality is our sufferings are very specific to us. Getting help from a professional for suffering, especially mental suffering, is like trying to describe to someone about a beautiful dream you had…it never will come close to doing justice.

Why is this? why does this issue arise? The simple answer is something called “empathy”. empathy is having a comprehension of someone. The interesting thing about this, is that we as humans will never actually experience full empathy for each other, because we are limited to our own conscious experience. It quite literally would require us to live the exact same experience as the one who suffers to actually have a fullness of empathy for them. We can only say “I know how you feel, I’ve been there” but the reality is we haven’t literally experienced the exact same pains that individual is feeling. We only empathize with them because we too have similar or same sicknesses or sufferings. Each and every person walking on the earth, right now, has their own individual mental and physical pain that only they know is true…only they experience. Each conscious experience is unique and independent. This can be seen as both beautiful and lonely, in an ironic way.

Jesus has a bold way of stiff-arming what would be “lonely” above. He, a God, felt our pains and sorrows. When you’re suffering, your specific conscious experience has been felt before. In a sense, your pains and sorrows have already been lived. Jesus knows exactly your suffering; in fact, he knows the suffering of the hundreds of billions of people who walk and have walked the earth also.

The only way a psychologist could truly help you is to first live your conscious experience, to actually know how you feel. To feel your experience based off your brain chemistry and levels of serotonin, dopamine, Gaba, endorphins and norepinephrine. The radical differences in these chemicals are impossible to know in someone without experience itself. Studying external behavior and reading professional literature is nothing compared to actually the experience itself.

There is not a doubt in my mind that Jesus felt our pains and sorrows literally. Being a God, he knew as much as you and I know, that our experience is individual to us. in fact, our “experience” is the only thing we have in this existence. We never really own anything unique to us, except our own experience. He knew that in order to truly help, he must feel the dreadful mental, physical and emotional sorrows of being human for each one of us. Think with me, for this moment, of all the horrible executions, accidents, robberies and wars that have occurred. Now dig deeper and know that every single experience every individual has had in those instances were felt by Jesus. All the extreme experiences of depression, drugs and alcohol addictions. All the sickening feelings of heartbreak that one has felt. All the difficult bouts of PTSD that service men/woman felt and feel. The horror of losing a loved one. The list is endless.

Your pains have been experienced already, and because of this, the savior has perfected empathy. He is the embodiment of charity and empathy. He made sure that no stone was left unturned before he left to his glorified state.

The next time you feel sad from watching the news, from wars or accidents…or even if now, you’re experience depression or mental anguish, never forget who has felt it all, and who is always on stand-by to help.

-Jarom

And He Said Unto Them “Why Are Ye So Fearful? How is it That Ye Have No Faith?”

Everyday our thoughts stick a thorn in our peace as we constantly obsess over matters that don’t even exist…except in our minds. We have deep bouts of anxiety about all the “what ifs” in the unknown future. We question our lives. We compare ourselves to others on social media…a losing battle that will never be won. Human beings are filled with fear, anxiety and insecurity. We all hold hands on suffering…emotionally, mentally and physically. Some will wake up tomorrow to hear dreadful news from their doctor. Others will go to sleep tonight in tears from being cheated on. Many lose loved ones…unexpectedly. Suffering is as normal a part of life as the air we breathe.

Many suffer from horrible addictions that feel impossible to overcome. Rather it be pornography or a sinister drug, our lives are always only one puff, drink or click away from a deep dark hole. It ruins so many…a prison that can bring even the strongest individuals down. Independent of any “sin”, even the most radical atheists can see the destruction of addiction. It is part of reality, no matter your worldview.

Individuals, every day, wake up fearing what “might” happen, afraid of their abilities to get something done or supporting their families. People are afraid. Society is a collection of millions of people who are afraid. No matter how confident someone is, how much money they have, fear is always whispering to their consciousness. The mask people wear is taken off when they are alone. It is laid away until the next social media post or public appearance. No matter what, that mask is never forgotten as they walk out the door.

2000 years ago, on the sea of Galilee, a few good men doubted a God. They were filled with deep bouts of anxiety and fear as their boat tossed in the dark ocean. The storm they were under was causing even the most faithful men to scream in horror to their leader, who was sleeping. They fearfully yelled “Master, carest thou not that we perish? “In other words, the master they were so deeply invested in became nothing more than another human, in this moment. All the beautiful things Jesus did prior was completely ignored. In this moment, they looked at God in the face and doubted him. They doubted all he had told them. They doubted Their missions and their leaders’ missions. They chose fear over faith. Their faith was non-existent as they anxiously yelled for help. Ultimately, their minds totally forgot about the spirit he had gave them…it didn’t exist in their minds as the waves clashed against their boat.

As many of us know, Jesus woke up and stopped the nightmare around them. The disciples watched in shock as the clouds faded into a beautiful sky. He questioned why they doubted…like a disappointed parent.

Many could easily look at this story and shake their heads at the disciples. What was wrong with them? To actually be with Jesus and still doubt? How is that even possible? In our minds we think about how amazing it would be to see Jesus, to feel his hugs and walk with him…as if we somehow would be different than they were. As if we would react so differently. My friends, we are no different and we prove this almost daily. You prove it daily. I prove it daily. We are like a bunch of terrified disciples questioning God all the time…fearing what might happen. We say we have faith…while simultaneously fearing the unknown. We fear when we act on Gods words…considering all the terrible possibilities that could happen if it falls through. We fear of embarrassment. Of slander. We fear of physical pain and death. We fear of being cheated on. Our insecurities claw on our consciousness, never giving many a break. We try to control things we have no control over…as if thinking something enough can change reality. The list goes on and on.

I ask myself, if I were on that same boat 2000 years ago, what would I have done? Would I have stood strong and patiently waited in the corner as my friends woke Jesus? To say this bluntly: No. I can confirm with confidence that I would have been right there with the disciples. I would have been afraid as the boat rocked under the lightning and thunder. I would have been afraid and dreadfully anxious. How do I know this? Because I doubt God at times. My faith is far from whole. Even when I think my faith is strong, I realize in a moment’s notice it’s fragile as glass from my chaotic mind.

How often do we hold on, both hands still gripping, afraid to let go? How often do we say we have both feet in with Christ, but we actually have one still out “just in case?”

How often are people fearful to attack their addictions because it feels impossible? How often do we fear embarrassment from society, for Christ? How often are people harassed by their insecurity, telling themselves they are worthless? How often do people choose pleasures over God, rejecting the knowledge of a perfect being? That somehow, he might not come through, maybe sex, drugs, status and money actually is happiness? Maybe God isn’t real, I’m just not experiencing life fully. How often does this happen? If we are so confident in Jesus, he must ask us…”how is it that ye have no faith?”

JESUS THE CHRIST: HE IS REAL

I know Christ is real. He lives. He is my savior, he is yours. He is an atheist’s savior, if they so choose to accept him. He is the savior to every individual who has ever lived, who lives now and who will live. A perfect God came down to earth 2000 year ago to suffer the greatest pain imaginable to people who hated him and still do. The same people who spit on him and handed him vinegar to drink were the same people he loved beyond human comprehension. He was charity in the flesh…and is now charity on a throne. I don’t care who you are, how stupid and disgusting you feel, he loves you like an obsessed parent. All the horror in mankind, the suffering that is far too radical for our minds to grasp, is fully comprehendible to Christ, having felt every moment of fear and pain in human existence. All the horrible accidents, mental illness, executions, domestic abuse, bouts of profound embarrassment and social destruction…not a tear has been shed in all human existence which Jesus the Christ didn’t experience himself.

It’s time. If you read this far, I’m your push to just do it. You know Christ is real…so now you can let go. You have to act now. Put both feet in with Christ. Roll all your dice. Lay all your cards out in front of you, without question. Put your arms out wide and fall back. Stop questioning. Stop looking back.

To a heartbroken Jarius, whose daughter had just passed away…our savior pronounced,

“Be not afraid, only believe.”

He then proceeded to raise his daughter from the dead. What beautiful miracles await you?

He lives-

Jarom

The Dream

You wake up, distorted and confused. Bright light from the sun above shines into your squinted eyes as you look around for your location. You’re high above the ground on what looks like a beautiful mountain. The blue skies ignore any clouds as the sun takes full advantage to warm your skin.

You look over to see an individual sitting next to you…It’s Jesus. The one whom you’ve obsessively thought about so many lonely nights and drives to work. The one whom you trusted in your previous life without ever seeing.

He hugs you closely and firmly. You realize that you know him. He looks exactly like what you thought. Like a family member whom you go home to every day, there is nothing about him that is unrecognizable.


After the long hug, you attempt to stand up out of respect. Jesus responds to your movement quickly “I’m glad you’re here! It’s ok, I truly appreciate your love, but in this moment let’s just watch this beautiful sky together.” You immediately sit down like a nervous child to a parent. You can’t stop smiling. Not only do you see him, but you feel him. You’re in shock…but blissfully happy.

“Jesus! I honestly can’t even comprehend that you’re…here. I’m actually here with you. Finally.” Energetically Jesus responds “I know! I am beyond happy. I’m so fulfilled that you’re here, sitting next to me, in this moment. I’ve been cheering you on and paying attention to your growth with me.”

“Really? I never doubted you Jesus. Well…maybe a little, but only a few times in my past life. I apologize Jesus, I realized that my past life was entirely meant to be confusing in some ways and beautiful in other ways. You know me more than I know myself, sometimes I was my own worst enemy.”

you’re simultaneously pondering back on your life, on all the times you experienced in relation to Jesus. The number of questions on your mind is tremendous. You remember one monumental time when you really doubted Jesus. “Jesus, remember when I was going through that transition stage in my life? new city and I felt super alone?” Jesus smiling, replies ” Yes I know exactly what you’re referring to.”

During that time, everyone I trusted turned their back on me. I had no one. The few people I did fully trust turned around on me and walked away. It was during this time when I questioned if even God would leave me. Remember? I’m sure you know already”

“Yes I know exactly the seconds, hours and days you’re referring to. Every last sprinkle of trust you had in everyone was lost. The few people you actually did trust disappeared. It created deep subconscious issues for you, enough for you to even ask if God would do the same.”

“Yes Jesus! I’m so sorry, it was wrong. Jesus it really messed my mind up, I was truly not right in those days. It’s just that…you start to really question everything when such deep issues happen over and over again. I felt the only person I could look to was the reflection in the mirror and nothing else. It was a hell in itself you could say. I needed someone, but no one was there.”

“I know, quite literally, what you mean. There was a certain time when I was on earth too, and I felt similar to you. I walked the streets of Galilee and Jerusalem long before your time on earth, only to be ignored and looked at as someone who’s not right mentally. I had few I trusted in on earth and more than one turned their backs completely on me. It was difficult being on that cross alone, to feel the nails in my hands and feet. Even I had to question for a few seconds on that cross why I’m alone.”

“Wow. Jesus I cannot even begin to imagine your strength. You are my everything, my savior and light Jesus. I need you. So when you were on the cross and asked why you were forsaken, you truly felt that way?”

Smiling Jesus replies “yes. Even me, a God felt the icy cold feeling of being entirely alone. Of being looked at as evil. Of being weird and socially unacceptable. Yet, I never once doubted myself. I knew my goal and I was going to accomplish it. One more important note here, I also felt your pains and sorrows. In that garden on earth, I felt everyone’s heartaches, deaths and anxieties. Not a bad feeling goes by in your life that I also didn’t feel. When you look at that sad reflection, feeling so deeply alone, remember I did the same. I lived your life.”

“Jesus what do you mean? Lived my life? Like literally? But Jesus I have certain physical issues that were extremely unique to me. My mental health was at times far too difficult for most to understand.”

“Yes. I lived every second of your life. I was walking with you every day of your life, experiencing all you felt also. I know what you felt. This is not an act of faith on my end, it literally happened. There was not a grumpy morning, flat tire, anxious thought or depressed night that I did not feel with you. All your anger, resent and sadness was fully felt by me as I strolled along your life with you. You chose for us on earth, I was always on the receiving end of your decisions.”

“What? no way! Now I feel terrible! So many bad decisions you had to feel. I’m so sorry. I can’t even begin to pay you back. What have I done Jesus? I carried you through all of that. So, this means you did the same for every human who ever lived?”

“Yes. Every child who passed in poverty, victim of wars and accidents. Whatever horrible suffering you imagine in your mind, I lived that life with that individual. I was simply accepting the pain in their lives fully. “

“Jesus? I love you!” Tears stream down your eyes as your intellect is tossed into shambles trying to grasp the moment. “Why did you do this? Like…I know that you died for me and you are the worlds savior, but you didn’t actually have to feel our exact pains and sorrows Jesus.”

Jesus sits smiling, looking out to the beautiful landscape. “I did it simply because I love you. I knew that you would feel alone. You would feel the bitterness of losing all trust in others. You would feel abandoned and neglected from all creatures. That’s why I came in. I chose to feel all your pains, to be your emotional punching bag…without you ever knowing it. I chose to feel your heartbreaks and fears. I chose to feel your anxieties and feeling of worthlessness. I chose to feel your deepest bouts of depression and anger. You were never alone. What this means is all your successes and joys were also felt by me, which in return brought me lots of smiles.”

Jesus still smiling continues “This is not a job interview or your regular one on one discussion like you hate. This isn’t a talk with a psychiatrist or psychologist. This isn’t your doctor talking or one of your friends who eventually left your life. This is someone who experienced every tear that dropped down your face. There is nothing you can possibly tell me that I’ve not felt myself, there is nothing you could tell me that I already don’t know. What’s so beautiful about this, is that even though trillions of people have lived on earth, your specific life experience was mine to feel. I love you.”

You can’t help but reach in for another long hug, but right when you do your eyes open as you look up at the clock. 2am. Your room is pitch black and the moonlight shines quietly through the window. “It was just a dream, only a nice dream.” A synergetic mix of sadness and peace overwhelms you as you lie back on your pillow. “If only that were real. I’d do anything to make that a reality.”

As you lie back on your bed pondering the beautiful dream you had, you receive a notification on your phone. Sluggishly you reach over to your phone and squint at the texts. It’s a friend needing advice on some trials they are experiencing. Not a close friend, but more of someone you know. Nevertheless, they want your help. They let you know about fears for an upcoming test, one that you’ve already taken and passed.

You smile wide as tears form in your squinting eyes. Not only did you pass that test, but you also know how it feels to be scared to take it. You realize that comprehending their fears allows you to help in such a way no one else can.

-Jarom

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