The World is in Short Supply of Angels

The suffering you’ve felt has been tremendous.

Your emotions have been picked apart, laughed at and trampled on.

The physical body that surrounds your broken soul is hurting and never can find comfort.

Suffering has forcibly become your new best friend, which isn’t the way it’s supposed to work.

Your world has become a monumental chaos. Stress is building day after day.

How can we possibly cope with this?

The future version of yourself needs the current one

If you are still alive thirty years from now, what will the end result be?

Who is that individual?

Will they be angry, depressed, bitter and sad?

Will they be full of bickering and complaints?

Will they hate the world and people because of the suffering they went through before?

How will they view the suffering you are facing right now?

Will they look back on the current stress and suffering you are going through now and know it was necessary to who they became or feel bitterness towards it?

The beauty of suffering is unmatched

Suffering is beautiful. Suffering is change.

Suffering will inevitably cause one to change. It changes our minds in incomprehensible ways.

Without your current pains, rather it be anxiety, depression, sickness, fear, overcoming hate, addiction, insecurity, heartbreak, injury, death from loved ones…you will not become the person you want to become. It takes more than simply wanting to be someone…it takes something called “experience” to achieve such a tremendous goal.

What do you honestly want to be 20, 30 or 40 years from now? a bitter, grumpy person who is obsessed with image, money and/or themselves…or someone who is seen as an angel to others…who people will look up to and need? Which one do you hope to become?

A Short supply of Angels in the world

The world has enough “cool” people. There are already enough rich people with “power”. There are enough people who obsess over validation and have fame. We already have Enough people who bully and hurt others for laughs and jokes.

There is an oversaturation of pride, hate, resent and “mind my own business”. Enough people who seek personal gain at the cost of other’s wellbeing.

There aren’t enough angels in the world. There aren’t enough people who lose their precious time for others. There aren’t enough people who seek to bring a light into others’ lives and give them hope. We are on a short supply of people who forget themselves to make people around them happier.

We lack enough of these angels, as they aren’t seen as cool, trendy or status symbols. They aren’t usually rich. Many go unnoticed, which isn’t glamourous or flamboyant. The journey to becoming an angel isn’t easy. It’s hard, and the life of an angel is the opposite of what society says it should be. Yet Angels are the happiest people, as they know content. They know it very well.

Angels are produced from suffering. Angels help others because they themselves felt tremendous pain in their lives at one point, allowing them to fully embrace empathy. Angels comprehend suffering, which gives them one of the most potent tools in reality to light up the lives of those around them. Angels rejected bitterness and hate when life got hard…instead using that suffering as fuel to bring light to others.

We are in desperate need of angels.

You are becoming an angel.

Smile through the suffering.

-Jarom

Our Relationship with Christ: A Powerful Analysis

The relationship you have with Christ is like a moving conveyer belt. On one end of this belt, we have God, and the other…Satan.

This conveyer belt is constantly going in one of the two directions. It is never turned off. When we sin, this belt is flipped to Satan. Even when we aren’t “sinning” in a direct way, but our minds get too absorbed in other things, the belt slowly reverses back to the adversary. Each second of every day, we are going in one direction or the other. Almost all of our decisions we make in life will bring us closer or further from Christ.

There is no way to press stop on this conveyer belt. It is in constant movement in one of the two directions. Every imperfection that engulfs us is pulling us in the wrong direction. The goal is to minimize this flipping of the switch…to keep it going only one way: to Jesus the Christ.

The relationship that you develop with God is variable, always changing…never paused. Do not forget this friend. The decisions you make every hour of every day, in some way, impact your relationship with Christ.

Satan Knows You Well

Have you ever been so busy with work, school or other responsibilities, that a week races by…only to have you sitting in guilt at the separation that subtly occurred? If you’re really close to God, even having one full day go by without him crossing your mind sufficiently is enough to create chaos from within. Satan, many times, works quietly and precept upon precept…he doesn’t act in such a way that is extreme or chaotic.

For example, the chances that a man who is close to Christ will wake up one day, out of the blue, with the intention of cheating on his spouse is virtually nonexistent. Satan slowly worked on this man, first sourcing a single thought…. then one becomes two… maybe this man clicked a link online showing him pornography, or replied to a direct message that he knew was crossing a line. Maybe he was absorbing Satan into his subconsciousness when he went off to a bar…or allowed his emotions from an argument to win him over. Satan had this man’s destruction all planned out, watching him as he ruins his life.

Satan is either (debatably) extremely intelligent…or just dumb with thousands of years of experience. I’ve argued this idea in my mind countless times, which direction the arrow points in these two possibilities. I lean to the latter, as the simple fact he attempted (and still does) to engage against a perfect God is a projection of his radical ignorance, stupidity and low EQ (emotional quotient). Regardless, he knows you very well. He is hyper focused on your every move, tediously influencing you by tossing thoughts into your mind…and even initiating emotions to persuade. He is a master at this. He wants nothing more than to see you afraid, hopeless and discontent. He smiles and laughs at every sin you engage in. I repeat, when you do something that you know is against God, Satan is laughing at you.

Just ponder with me, all the horrific acts of violence and evil that’s occurred on planet earth. The nightmarish wars, from the Civil war to World War 2. The Bullying of the innocent. Domestic abuse and broken homes, filled with tears and broken minds. Drug addicts, who would rather die than seek intervention. The drowning insecurities that make young adults feel depressed and pointless. Consider That the same entity who promoted, smiled and laughed (and still does) at these things is the same entity who you side with daily when you sin.

The Anatomy of Sin

Every sin we commit is a reflection of our love for Christ.

The brutal truth is when we sin, we’re essentially cheating with the enemy, and doing it right in front of our savior’s face. Each time we sin, or backpedal the other way, we’re doing nothing unique from what Judas and Peter did. We are rejecting our savior for our own personal gain, pleasure and self-preservation. Did not Judas backstab our God for a little cash? Did not Peter reject he knew the almighty God because he was scared for his reputation and safety? At its core, our moments of sin are nothing less than creating a different path, one that walks opposite of the Savior.

This doesn’t mean we don’t love God because we sin. That would be a logical error…a false dilemma fallacy. Someone can love their peers and still make mistakes; those mistakes do not immediately equate to a rejection of their love for the person. What it does mean is that the relationship needs to improve, grow and mold into something stronger.

Sin isn’t a complicated thing to understand. Sin is anything that is not the will of God in your life. Christians seemingly look at Sin in a very specific manner, which is understandable. Do not lie, steal, slander, fornicate, do drugs, bully etc… But the reality is the mindset of “I didn’t fornicate this past year” isn’t an accurate representation of what sin is. instead of looking at sin as a checklist, consider observing it in your life as a direction, overall. The conveyer belt analogy pinpoints it well. Every “sin” that we committed is only parts to the overall movement to or from Christ.

We all sin, A LOT. Even the most spiritual believers sin daily. Satan has fine-tuned us for destruction, making sure to expound on every weakness we have. He attempts to stomp on the parts of us that are spiritually cracked and fragile. He knows how to manipulate your brain chemistry through thoughts and emotions. He uses this as a weapon against you.

You must Be aware of who you are, of the thoughts that are produced into your consciousness, of the weak spots your soul has. Become a master of awareness, of knowing when Satan is influencing your soul.

Conclusion

Ultimately, when we pass from this life, what many people consider valuable will be meaningless.

The moment we leave this life, in that very moment, your social media accounts will be worthless. The likes, follows and cute Dm’s will be nothing. in that moment, all the petty drama you were involved in will cease. The drug called “validation” will be puffed no more. All the overtime work you put in for more income will be worth as much as the same dirt you are buried in.

The only thing that will matter is how much you turned to Christ for your stresses, pains, fears and salvation. He will be all that matters..

-Jarom

GOD IS IGNORING YOU

The constant prayers you’ve sent off to God seemingly are missing his front door entirely or read with laughter.

For you there are no other options…as nothing is happening.

You never expected for life to be easy. You knew it was going to be difficult and chaotic. You expected to lose loved ones, fail tests and miss out on new job opportunities. You expected it to seem unfair and unequal. You knew that just because you’re a good person…bad things will continue to stalk you.

What you did not expect is getting ignored from The God you worship. This was not part of the plan. This is not what he said. He clearly informed you to come to him for your problems…that he can somehow make things better. You do not expect life to stop having issues, but you do expect God to assist you with guidance and direction.

At times your faith in him was seemingly invincible. It was passionate and courageous. The feeling of waking up in the morning with a God on your side was calming to your screaming thoughts.

“the good ol days” are all that remains of this…as that same faith has lost its foundation. Even when you pray for more faith…nothing happened. When you prayed for any miracle for help…nothing happened.

Nothing is happening.

It’s been months and months of heartfelt prayer with no response. You question God at this point. “Imaginary friend” recycles in your mind from your past experiences in life. “Maybe they’re right…” as the self-pity absorbs the little pride you cling to.

Jesus stood alone

When Jesus was walking with a group of followers that had gathered from his miracles, he began talking to them in regard to the purpose of his supernatural abilities. He wanted to make it clear that miracles had a specific motive…and it wasn’t to toss evidence to unbelievers.

It was received with shaking heads and faithless minds. The followers began to argue about these new teachings. The crowd began walking away, most likely annoyed or bored by Jesus. After the crowd left, only a few men were left standing: the apostles.

Jesus looks over at one of them, Peter, and asks a powerful question...”Will ye also go away?” to which Peter replied “Lord, to whom shall we go? Thou hast the words of eternal life”

I imagine that Jesus couldn’t help but smile, as the sarcasm from Peter was based off the presumption that he and the crew obviously knew Jesus was the Christ. How wholesome a situation…the apostles standing firm as the crowd walks away? To stand with Christ is peak beauty in this existence.

If you have enough faith to pray passionately, on a consistent basis for something, then your faith is sufficient to accept that he is in fact listening…but not acting in a way you can see. As each day passes with nothing to show for your time on your knees…you still are forced into the same response Peter gave. Where else are you to go? Can you just force yourself into atheism by choice? Can you reject God and go sin like he doesn’t exist anymore? Can you start believing in another God of some sort to get back at God?

The alternative responses to Peter’s are not things that happen overnight. They take time and effort to do. If you have faith built up in God, trying to forcibly reject him is unnatural and disorderly to your soul. You cannot choose to openly reject the same God you’ve had faith in all your life and not lose the spirit in the process. This radical loss from God is the medication to your soul…and if rejected will give withdrawals that never stop.

God knows that the beautiful worldview you’ve created with him cannot be clicked off like a remote control. You accept a creator, so now you must live your life accordingly. In these difficult times, our response is to live with the frustration, confusion and lacking evidence for a time. God knows what’s like to be a human, he himself was one…so he understands every tear that you shed. He knows why you’re upset, afraid and anxious. He knows you more than you know you.

The whole experience of feeling rejected by God is nothing new. In Psalms 22, we see a man crying to God above for help…with no response. “O my God, I cry in the day time, but thou hearest not…” are the words written on the feeling of frustration and rejection. Just like you, this individual was confused by his creator’s stoic position to his prayers, yet we can see that the idea of giving up or rejecting God was not even a consideration. The individual was going to push with nothing to put his faith in… stand strong even with no response. “My God my God, Why hast thou forsaken me?” are the opening words to this chapter…the same words repeated by Christ as he suffocated on the cross. While many scholars have different interpretations of why Jesus repeated these words, I believe that Jesus needed to experience a full rejection of God and push through to finish his mission on earth. Could Jesus have changed his situation while on the cross? Of course he could have. If, during this short period of loss from his father he decided to change his mind…. he easily could have done so. As he hung on a cross, trying to take in oxygen for his dying body, his father left him alone entirely for a short time which forced Jesus into the deepest depths of darkness. Considering Jesus was also human, he experienced confusion by this loss. It did not stop him, though. The savior continued with his mission and pushed through the deepest darkest moments in the history of mankind. If there ever was an example to all of us on what to do when it seems God has rejected us, or left us, this is the moment we need to remember.

Keep moving forward with Christ. You know he lives, so accept that this spiritual drought is necessary for something in the future. Like Peter said…what is the alternative? To openly reject your creator? To run to sin, which in return will punish your already frustrated soul? No. Stick close to God and his word…and God will arrive with blessings from heaven on his time.

-Jarom

Blind Faith (a short story)

You’re in a dark cave.

You’re alone.

You left your phone in the car…no light or messages can be sent.

You’ve been yelling for hours in hope of some sort of rescue…all that’s heard is echos that seemingly mock you in return.

After hours of walking slowly through the dark hole… you sit down in tears. Hope has been defeated.

Your mind and thoughts are on the people you’re never going to see again. All the memories you will miss. “If only” is the constant phrase running through your chaotic mind.

To toss more wood to your mental fire…your prayers seemingly have been unheard. Absolutely nothing has changed. Based off your estimation, it’s been at least a day of turmoil. This unknown final chapter in your book of life was introduced with deep bouts of prayer to your “God” above. Hours of prayer in the darkness was your go to move at first.

You come to the ultimate conclusion that if you had never prayed in this cave…you would be in the same situation. In fact, all the prayers you had in your life for direction seem meaningless to you, in the moment. The faith you built for years was pointless.

You cry harder than you’ve ever cried before. The last time you whelped this bad was decades ago.

After some time, you decide to get up and start walking in hopes of finding an entrance or hear another voice. You’ve yelled for so long you cannot get any noise to come out. Tears have dried up on your face.

As you slowly walk through the physical nightmare, you trip over a rock and hit the hard ground like an acorn to a car. The fall is dead weight. You are, at this point, numb to emotion. You’ve given up on yourself. God, the one whom you gave your all to in your existence…seems to follow suit.

You have been walking in a physical nightmare now for hours and hours…nothing.

Nothing is happening.

God forgot about you. He either isn’t real or doesn’t care. There is no in-between.

Your hope is gone. There is absolutely no reason to continue trying. It’s over. You ‘re starving, afraid and depressed.

It’s all over.

You find a soft spot of mud, or what seems to be mud…and lie in it.

“This will be my grave, right here” you whisper to your broken ego.

its over.

its all done.

You tried.

Your whole life of building up your career…a waste. Your relationships? worthless. Nothing mattered. It’s done.

You stare at the darkness. It’s so dark, when you close your eyes nothing changes. All you can hear is the drips of liquid hitting the rocks around you. Oddly, you feel slightly relaxed for the first time. The adrenaline is wearing off. Exhaustion has somewhat of a calming effect to your hurt conscious.

As you lie alone in the cave…You suddenly feel a unique feeling of peace. It’s a beautiful feeling of comfort…of hope. The irony of feeling comfort in such a horrific time makes you giggle.

The feeling forces hope back into your hopeless mind.

It could be what you used to call “God”…but you’re certain it’s just another brain chemical. Regardless, this comfort gives you a potent boost to keep going. To move forward.

To put one foot in front of the other. To stay alive…just a little bit longer.

You stand up like a toddler learning to walk. You’re exhausted and drained.

One foot softly is put in front of the other and you slowly push forward. Pushing through the sadness and anger.

You walk… with zero evidence of getting out. All you have left is a sprinkle of hope that came from within.

You have, at this point in your chaos, blind faith with no results or evidence to lean on. Nothing to see…nothing to hear. Just walking in the dark once again. For whatever reason, you feel it’s worth the extra effort…and you don’t understand why. So, you just keep on walking.

Another hour of walking is your guess…then you’ll find your natural burial ground.

Then something happens.

You see a small speck of light far off in the distance. The distance away is monumental, making it look like a tiny star in the galaxy.

“hope”.

The drip of hope you had turns from a Prius to a Lamborghini. It skyrockets into certainty. Though far away, with numerous rocks and crevices ahead…that little speck of light is waiting for you.

You start walking to the itty-bitty light with new direction and motivation. As you walk…your eyes are hyper focused on it. That tiny dot is your entire future. Though small…it alone is all your hope, joy and peace. Your family…everything is on the other side of it. It is freedom and life.

The ultimate value of something so small comes across as ironic.

You trudge through foot deep water…at times going faster than you know you should. The fact you cannot see anything except the light makes it convenient to walk towards, at least.

Every so often your conscious becomes aware of the minuscule light growing bigger. With each passing step closer, the light fills out more and more.

Finally, after tediously walking through crevices and dirty water…you make it to the light. It had to at least been an hour of walking.

You stop.

The eyes that were blind the past day stares at the opening. You See trees and a cloudless blue sky. The siren from a paramedic is heard from miles away. Birds chip like they are cheering for you.

It turns out this is the same entrance you went in at…and your shiny blue car is parked. The anxiety that has been harassing you disappears as you run to the car.

“My phone!” you scream. “Nine missed calls?!” You’re too tired be anymore stressed…so you put the phone down and exhale.

The moment is absorbed slowly.

You made it. Pain and aches from the fall prick your peace. The nearest Emergency room should be the next destination, as frustrating as that sounds.

As your mind destresses…something clicks within you.

you step outside the car and fall to the ground in tears.

God, the one whom you rejected in what seemed to be your last moments…had to be there all along. The expectations you had in your mind were not his…but the end result was identical. If you would have died on the floor of that cave, given up then…the light would have never been seen.

You ponder why you walked from your burial ground earlier. Why would you robotically walk with blind faith?

Nothing was happening.

All you can ponder is the word “nothing” in your conscious. The feeling you had on the ground gave you a sprinkle of hope…but it took blind faith…and lots of it….to discover the blessing you wanted.

Without that blind faith, the final push…seemingly alone…you would not be here right now.

The scariest moment of your past journey was blindly walking without anything to see, feel or hear…but it was crucial to aligning your will with your creators will.

It was only then that your heartfelt prayers could be answered.

-Jarom

There is no evidence for God

Consider a human thought. Every moment of every day you walk this earth, there is a “thought” that appears into your consciousness. Not a moment exists when your mind isn’t accepting a thought in this life unless you’re unconscious or dead.

I used to be an atheist…a strong one at that. I firmly believed that we were nothing more than evolved primates. I firmly accepted that everyone I passed on the road was just star dust…. that there was no real purpose to anything. Even though we as humans can discover subjective fulfillment for ourselves through hobbies, family or career…overall nothing actually mattered in the long run. If everything, one day, will cease to exist…then overall humanity has no real purpose.

As an atheist, I would demand evidence for belief. Science was my God…even though science is constantly changing. It changes so much because really, in the grand scheme of things, we know so little. For some reason, we as humans feel we know so much…when the reality is we are clueless.

Let’s take human consciousness, for example. It baffles me just how lost the most intelligent professors are on this subject. A five-year-old is equally knowledgeable on what consciousness actually is as those with PHD’s. We all start at square one when it comes to knowing what consciousness is…it’s a mystery to even the top neuroscientists in the world.

As an atheist I’d watch countless interviews on consciousness…on what it is. I was blown away on how atheistic scholars would try so hard to make sense of it. To reject a soul in exchange for other, somewhat ridiculous ideas. Slowly I began to see that many scholars have internal biases against a higher power, that the idea of one isn’t something they would want to whisper to themselves. They wouldn’t even flirt with the idea of a “soul”. Not possible, door was shut in their minds to this.

Consider that when a professional performs an autopsy on a brain…he doesn’t see their thoughts or memories. All that is seen is a blob called the “brain”. Wouldn’t it be interesting to lay out someone’s thoughts on a table and examine them? We cannot. This leads me to the point of this post.

There is zero evidence for a human thought. We cannot touch one. We cannot see one. Microscopes cannot catch them in its lenses. How do we know that a “thought” is real? Because we experience them. If we did not experience thinking, we could not prove it exists in any way. Science couldn’t do it for you either. Science can only prove that a brain is active, that it has thoughts, not what they are. I have faith that you’re thinking when I talk to you because of your human behavior, your eye contact, facial expressions, verbal response etc… not because I see your “thoughts” appearing in my eyesight. ultimately, science hasn’t a clue what a thought is…there isn’t evidence of one except the experience we have in our heads. This isn’t just me saying this, every top professor of neuroscience would agree with me.

How do we know that God exists? Do we see him?

Do we touch him with our hands?

Does a microscope catch him in its lenses?

Has science released peer-reviewed papers on him?

NO.

we know he is real because we experience him. Our experience is all we have for God as well as our thoughts, memories and feelings.

Logically, if someone denies God because there is no evidence…he must also deny his own thoughts and others…because there is none for that either.

-Jarom